Welcome to Olivia's Daughter....a blog that I created in March 2010 to document my blessed journey of healing. Since I began this blog, my mother has gone home to be with the Lord along with my son, Chris Reshaud Jordan, who was murdered in October 2009. After these two devastating events, I felt forsaken by God. I cried out to the Lord seeking my purpose in life. Throughout this experience, I had to make the choice to surrender to a life of worthlessness or to live my life to the fullest, a life filled with abundance and love.


God has strengthened me. I am seeking Him daily and and working to live in His will which is leading me to my purpose and passion. I think of Chris and Olivia constantly, but I have turned this over to God. I want God to use me as his vessel giving Him the glory.

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Day 7 - Fasting and Praying



This is the Day that the Lord has made, Let us rejoice and be glad !!!
Praise the Lord !!! Oh, God this day I come humbly before you giving you thanks and asking you to forgive me of my sins. Oh, Lord and Master you are so worthy. Lord Bless us and we continue in this Fast, let me build a pleasing relationship with You.

This day has been a good day, a simple day, a quiet day for me. I was not able to attend church today and fellowship with my family. God please help me.

Today is Day 7 and I am stronger, I have energy and I feel good. Yesterday while at Whole Foods I discovered several foods. I love Tofu, but did not know the purpose of Silken Tofu. I also found my favorite kettle chips BAKED. Yes baked, what a blessing. They are as good as the fried and don't leave my fingers greasy lol. I looked up a recipe for the Silken Tofu;

1/2 package (8 ounces) Nasoya Silken Tofu

1/2 medium ripe banana
1/2 cup orange juice
1/4 cup honey (I will substitue with 100% apple juice)
3/4 cup fresh or frozen strawberries or fruit of choice
1 cup ice


Preparation

Blend together tofu, banana, orange juice, honey (substitute apple juice), and fruit until smooth. Add ice, then continue to blend until creamy. Serve immediately. Makes 4 servings


I need to collect banana and apple juice, when I make this healthy treat I will be sure to post its taste.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Day 6 -Fasting and Praying


Wow ! Wow ! Wow ! Day 6 was well spent. I woke up with a prayer in my heart. God is so kind. I continue to work on my relationship with the Lord ! I started off the day praying and thanking the Lord for his blessings. His kindness helps me to be patient with my mom who is ill and needs care. I got my mom her breakfast together, we both had grits, hers had butter mine did not. I took my multivitamins which give me a nice amount of energy, enough to shovel my car out :)

I picked up my Fasting Support Partner and we began our journey of finding good wholesome natural foods. We headed to Whole Foods and then Zaggara's. At Whole Food's we read labels and choose foods that we appropriate for the fast. We ran into another NCBF member who shopped with us. We had funh We found lots of foods that we could incorporate into our Daniel Fast.

Lord Thank you for another day!

Friday, February 26, 2010

Day 5 - Fasting and Praying


This Day !!! Today is the worst winter day of 2010. I got up and got ready for work. I asked the Lord for strength to get through this day. My mother has phenomena so I had to go out and get her prescription. When I got back with the meds and gave them to her she had a seizure, and blacked out for a second or two. As I looked at her I asked the Lord to hold her and give us peace and that the God's will be done. As she came out of the seizure I asked how to you feel. She said I blacked out, I felt like I was falling. She then said I feel alright. She said to me don't go to work, and I said ok. Since then she has sat in her chair and feeling good, talking, laughing and asking saying she wants Jayden over here :) I praise God for whatever time he is giving me with my mom and we are enjoying each other's company This Day.

Praise God !!!

Ok, Ok, last evening I had the most wonderful Tofu meal, with broccoli, bean sprouts and balsamic dressing (no sugar, no preservatives). My cousin blessed me with about 8 packages of Tofu because she knows I enjoy it and so does she. She and her husband have joined NCBF in this fast. I plan to have another Tofu dinner tonight, I will add green peppers, onions and garlic, yummy, yummy.

Tomorrow I plan to go to Whole Foods with my Fasting Support Partner and have an amazing shopping experience.

Thursday, February 25, 2010


Day 4 - Fasting and Praying

Giving God the Glory ! I’m feel better deep down in my soul today. I feel much better, some things in my life are moving forward. I have let go and things are being put into place. I have some worries but I know God will work things out. I have coming to the realization that God’s will is to be honored in everything small and big. I had a small pray in my heart since the end of December and God is working it out, bit by bit. I love to see God work, I am in awe of God’s goodness.

My healing is gradual, I have been told by concerned individuals that the hurt will always be in my heart but I have to learn to function with the hurt. I understand this and I realize I need God to be able to put the functioning piece in place. I have not been functioning at my ordinary level, which is understandably. I need to accept the things, people, kindness God puts in place for me.

My craving for PEPSI has not surfaced today. I want to give God the Glory. You may not understand but I truly love PEPSI. He helped me work through this yesterday and today is better. I am feeling God’s sweetness more and more.

Today I had oatmeal for breakfast and juice, for lunch I enjoyed Morningstar chicken fingers and grapes. Boy oh Boy was it delicious. I am taking Centrum Vitamins along with a Multi vitamin from Trader Joe’s improved engery. Thanks Lord for putting people in my life who share good information. The Pita Chips by Sahara Cuisine are excellient. I got them at Giant Eagle.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Day 3 - Fasting and Praying


Going deeper !!! Much deeper !!! I want the Lord to build a wall of protection around me and my family. I want the devil to stay outside of those walls. I want to be able to see God’s will in my life and to accept it, holding on to my faith !!! I want to be friends with the Lord again, sometimes I feel betrayed by the Lord. I don’t seek a relationship with him like I use to. I miss Him. Lord forgive me for turning my back on you. I humbly come before you asking forgiveness. Lord please forgive me. Help me love myself again Lord.

I’m not hungry today. I am thirsting for sugar, sweetness, Coco Cola, Pepsi. I have thought about going to the pop machine and getting a 20oz Pepsi. I will seek out the sweetness that can only be found in the Lord. Lord help me, as I humbly come before you asking for your sweet presence.
Lord you know me and you know I love PEPSI !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Day 2 - Fasting and Praying




Well Day 1 was awesome. I still continue to be excited. I prayed and kept my mind on the Lord throughout the day. God continues to show his hand in my life. Yesterday, I had very little conflict if so it was with myself :) Today my spirit is lifted and I am determined to keep my mind on the Lord. I need to be filled with his presence if I am to grow stronger in my relationship with him.

Yesterday, I went out did some more grocery shopping with a dear friend. It is good to have support along the way. God puts people in our lives for a reason. This a.m. I had oatmeal for breakfast, I have a fantastic lunch packed. It is a shopping bag full of delicious healthy foods. Yesterday I discovered Morningstar Riblets, I am excited about my variety of food choices today; grapes, banana, ptia chips, hummus, Morningstar Chicken Fingers. Oh, yeah yesterday I had an awesome mix of almonds and cranberries as a in between snack.

Please keep me in prayer and remember my mother in your prayer. I am praying for NCBF as we move forward in this season of growth.

Monday, February 22, 2010

Day 1 - Fasting and Praying


My day thus far has been peaceful, I feel close to the Lord. I have set realist goals and with the Lord I will achieve them. I was excited when I heard about the fast and knew I wanted to be a part of it. This past year has been stressful, and challenging. I need the Lord to carry me through this trial and anxious to see the Lord work in my life.

On the lighter side, I have given up meat and facebook for 40 days. Realistic, well ....!!! With God's help I can do anything. My coworker are rubbing it in. But they have been so supportive, at lunch they brought me back bananas, oranges, nuts and cranberries. God has placed good people in my life. I thank him for this.