Lord is it me or is it me !

Lord I am struggling in the area of relationships. I am not in fellowship with certain individuals; to be exact 3 and possible 1 more. I am in need of You to examine my heart and show me any wrongs things I may have said or done. Or is it that I am being separated from these individuals for a reason. It does not feel God like as we do not communicate anymore. I do know at times I do not want to tolerate people if they piss me off, I shut them off and keep it movin. I am not feeling good in this place, I do not have to have these individual in my closest circle but I do want to be able to be cordial. Move my pride out of the way and let me acknowledge my wrong, give me the words needed to make amends. Two of the relationships are kinda like I always feel used and disrespected so I see myself choosing to keep the door closed. The other was disrespect and I reacted too quickly, I had let a lot build up in me and I passively aggressively let the person have it. I was THREW. I want to practice giving love and if people need to step out of my life for a season I want them to have kind thoughts of me. Lately I find myself at peace and if others are disrupting my peace I push them out. I need to know is this cool, is it ok, or is it me.

SMILE !!!!

Lord I am forever grateful for the favor, grace and mercy You show me. Grateful to be Your servant, for allowing me to live in purpose. Oh what a wonderful feeling. Lord You reign above all things, Your love is everlasting. Being here right now in this space in this minute with You is the absolute best !!!

Today is a day of excitement for me. I started my day off early in anticipation of a wonderfully blessed day. I am striving to be the best servant of the Lord that I can be, sitting still and listening and waiting for GOD.

Today I have an appointment with a dentist for some cosmetic work. Recently I have wanted to smile but hold back due to my jacked up teeth. So I was lead to a process that is a 1/3 or even a ¼ of the price that it would take to correct my teeth. The entire process should be completed by the end of the summer. I have to gently work it into my budget and save as I go. For me this is a miracle. I know this is of God because this has been weighing heavy on my heart for about a year. Once or twice Ariel and I have had the conversation of if I could have any type of cosmetic surgery, what would you pick. We both always say dental. I would take it over tummy tuck, breast lift, botox and all the other choices. It is important for me. I thank God for blessing me in this way.

True Image tonight, I’m there. I will be ready to challenge my body and grow strong. I plan to attend 2 to 3 times this week.

Beauty: Wet N Wild new spring collection is in some stores. Difficult to locate, Walgreen have the polish display (sold out). Excellent reviews on the collection. No sign of the new lipsticks displays.

Decisions Decisions Decisions

Decisions Decisions Decisions

Lord I need Your help ! I want your guidance in this matter trusting that You know the plan for me. I want to be honest in my walk. I want to be a woman of integrity, knowing that my words and actions are purposeful and Godly.

I have to make a decision; I know what I need to do. But I want to make sure this is what God wants for me. I have lots of things going on and this decision would obligate much more of my time. I have learned that my time is very very valuable and therefore I am careful what I obligate to. I trust God in this decision, and in making this decision I need God to give me the words in response.

This weekend was awesome, prayer service was magnificent. I was able to connect with God with other worshippers. I am praising God that souls were saved. Friday’s prayer gave me such an enriched worship on Sunday. It was if I was with God and nothing else mattered. The Lord was able to use me in so many ways. God is giving me the boldness to talk to others and offer them my testimony and give them hope. I want others to have the peace I have found in Jesus.

I am looking forward to this week. Actually I got up and was pleased it was Monday. That is a stretch for me as I usually regret the weekend is over. I am expecting great things this week. Living in purpose makes so much sense. I am excited about upcoming Life Groups; being blessed and blessing others. True Image; my goal is 3x this week. I got to get it in. Treadmill; will be delivered Wednesday, Yes, Yes ! Thank you Lord for this blessing. I will begin to train for the Revco Marathon. I am thanking God for success in advance. I want to thank You Lord for giving a young woman of God a 10 lb loss which encouraged her and me. I am going to the dentist tomorrow and begin a series of cosmetic work. Thank You Jesus I have things I want to smile about and I don’t want my crooked teeth to show, so often I hold back. Praying that I will be a candidate for the procedure. Friday evening I am invited to dinner with a sweet heart of a girlfriend and with fellow girlfriends. I know we will have a wonderful evening together. We have not hooked up in months. So I know we will have lots to catch up on. I love women of God. My friend is an excellent cook; she makes the most delicious healthy foods. Like cooking is her gifting. Saturday; me and my girls are going on a shopping adventure. We are going vintage shopping. I will only buy something if it knocks me off my week. I have clothes in my closet that I have not worn, and this is greed. I want to go to hang out and for the fellowship, and I know we will have a good Godly conversation and a meal along the way.

Yesterday I started reading the book of Job, I read until I feel asleep, woke up picked it up and read some more. Praise God !

Beauty: I went to Clinque and picked up two pore diminishing products. I need to address my hands and feet. In a big way, in the winter my cuticles are awful, I got a cuticle conditioner, I need to use it, there is a product at Sally’s I will pick up for my feet. I may need to consider professional manicures for a while, until my hands are in better condition.

Tonight is the Night !

Lord I enter your house in Thanksgiving. Praise Your wholy name !

Every now and again I step out to the Disco, nightclubs, Jazz sets to party and celebrate various occasions. Some drinking may be involved and certainly some dancing. I have always enjoyed going out, when I was in my twenties I was the queen of disco. I would party almost every night of the week. Throughout the day leading into going out I would prepare myself with high anticipation. I bubbled over to get out and be on the scene and put my best foot forward with style.

Now I have the same anticipation for tonight's prayer vigil. I am excited, I have planned all week to be there. I cleaned up around the house this morning, washed a load of clothes, and plan to Fast (my dinner meal). Never would I have ever imaged that I could have these same feeling for our annual prayer vigil. But I do ! I am giving God His glory, worshiping, praising and in prayer. God has been so good to me, turning me around giving me a second, third, fourth, (you get the picture) time. Tonight I will celebrate the Lord that gave IT ALL for me. The Lord who washed about my sins ! The Lord who taught me to forgive and move on ! The Lord who healed my broken heart ! The Lord who promised I will see my love ones again !

Oh Thank You Jesus !!!

Peace with my food !

Lord You are so merciful ! You are so powerful ! You are so loving ! I thank You for being a Prince of Peace, a provider, a healer and a comforter. I am thrilled to know that you reign above all and that you see all and know all. WOW ! I am blessed to serve You and I am praying that you guide me and that I live in obedient to Your word ! Draw me nearer to the word !

I have a desire a thrist to have more knowledge of the Word. I know that to do this I must pour myself in the Word. I realize I need to bury the Word in my heart and that I also need to have the Word in me in order to help others. I realize the power in the Word. Lord I am slow but I get it, I get it. You work on me in such a kind manner always nurturing me and growing me up. Thank You for being my loving Father.

Following my meal plan of FA has put me at peace with my food. Not only does my food satisfy me I enjoy cooking. I wake up at bright and early cooking a simple breakfast of two eggs (over easy), 1 packet of regular oatmeal, banana or fresh blueberries. While I get ready for work, I cook my protein for lunch and dinner; either steak, chicken or pork. I have never been the type of person to pack a lunch, never ever. Now it is so nice to have a fresh salad, protein and hot veggie for lunch. It is so satisfying. I would usually jump up run out to Mc D, Wendy’s, Chipotte, whatever; as long as it was fast and fattening. Eating like this with planned meals can get boring at times, but I am acquiring a taste for good wholesome foods vs. the other stuff.

Last night after Life Group I picked up a Pizza, for Ariel and I was not tempted to open the box and kill at least 4 slices. Now remind you it is already 9:15 p.m. and I have not eaten since lunch time. This is nothing but GOD almighty. I took myself home warmed up my chicken, got my salad out the frig warmed up some collard and turnips and ate. This is when I totally respect the program. God showed me He could keep me. I remember when I would have tore the box of sizzling hot pizza open in the car. Grease would have been running everywhere and even the burning of my tongue would not have stopped me for chopping down riding home. God You have shown me such favor in this area.

Beauty Product Haul – I decided to try Roc eye cream with Retin A. The review are good and the price was $19.99. I will use this tube and see if my under eye area improves. Mac Zoom masacre; I have been using it since Saturday. It separates the lashes well and lengthens well. Can’t remember if it is waterproof. Thus far I like it better than drug store brands that I have. I plan to pick up the Lancome foundation and Mac Mineralized skin finish natural. I decided to go on and begin to use color on my lips today I wore burgundy type color by Kiss New York (beauty store brand). I uploaded a photo.

Fitness: My treadmill will be delivered on the 2nd of February. I am so excited. I will be in training for the Revco/Rite Aide Marathon. I plan to do a ½ marathon (walk). This will give me a new goal to work toward. I will be at True Image tonight and Saturday a.m. Excited about my cardio and toning. Then I will workout again tonight with Fit for the King. This month we featured The Firm, next month will be Boot Camp. Kathy is coming one night to talk with us about the program and do a workout and then we will do boot camp type workout instructed by yours truly. PRAY PRAY PRAY J

Use me Lord ! Use me !

Lord I want to thank You for getting me up this a.m. with my mind on You. I am grateful that you saw fit for me to live another day. I pray for an evening of blessed prayer service and Life Group. Lord I am thanking You in advance for our blessings. Lord send in the hurt and the non believer out tonight in search of Your truth. I desire that others know You and experience Your mighty hand of favor, grace and mercy.

There have been times when I woke up with my mind on a crisis, an upset and my other things. But this morning around 2:00 a.m. I woke up with you on my mind. I was able to sit up in my bed pray and medicate on You. Above all my worries, tasks, etc it was You. Because I trust You to get me through whatever I face today. I remember as a small child going to church hearing the song “I woke up this morning with my mind laid on Jesus”. Back then I song the song but it had little or no meaning to me. I know understand how the saints rejoiced in this song and gave their praises to You.

Our agency is restructuring again. Our leadership is working really hard to keep our non profit agency operating without layoffs. I believe they have the best interest of the agency, but in making some of their decisions people are hurt. I am praying that You Lord will give management the words to approach the wounded. Enough said !

Today and tomorrow are so important to me due to Life Groups. I seek out and come expecting blessings for all of us. During my storm I turned my back to God, in my passive aggressive manner. I came to church off and on as I saw fit. Got some word did some fellowship, but I was mad at God and wanted Him to know it.

When I decided to rededicate my life to Christ I knew I had to seek out a Life Group. I needed a small group of Godly ladies that I could walk through this with. Women who had similar stories and hurts. I found them J This time last year I was at home over weight, in bed and depressed. This year I am much better. Never Would have Made it Without You, I wiser, I’m better ------ I guess this will be one of the songs my lil Jayden will remember as he matures. That’s the song grandma use to sing.

No where in my imagination would I have thought I would be an assistant in Fit for the King, nor the face for True Image advertisement. God is showing me to depend on Him and do as He instructs and He will pour out blesses. I do realize these blesses are to be shared in order to help others. I relate so closely with the feeling of being miserable with myself that I can sense it in other women. I want to be able to encourage and cheer them on in their journey. Because what I have found is that I am working on making peace with God and myself. And in doing so my daily worship has magnified. God gives me what I need to carry a message or lead a Life Group without nervousness. So I ask God daily to keep me humble, and to keep my head up --- looking up to God. Living in God’s purpose feels real good. Use me Lord ! Use me !

Beauty Tip for today: 1. I brought in water, I dislike water, so this is a challenge. Water keeps me ticking. 2. My mother always always gave me her honest opinion about my appearance. So now when I walk out I rely on mirror and lighting. I have 3 lights on my makeup table that help me enhance things LOL My maginifying mirror looks closely and helps me with blending, and making sure under eye concealer is on correctly. I have undereye darkness and wrinkles so I have to real careful with the undereye, for real, for real ! I have posted a picture of my makeup table, mirrors and lights.

Support

Lord I thank You for placing me here, right now. I like the place I am in. Give me what I need to encourage myself and others.

This morning as I got ready for work, my thoughts shifted to my parents. I think of them often, how they encouraged me to know my worth in life. Well my mother did a better job of encouraging, my dad only seemed to like me when I was on target. Then he gave praises. But whatever, I am glad to have had them both. I had thoughts of being in this world all alone because they are both deceased. Then my mind instantly shifted to God and His love and all the people that he has placed in my life to encourage and support me. I immediately went into praise mode. Grateful Grateful Grateful !!!! The love my parents offered lingers in my memory. Their example of support to me and others allows me to be able to give it to others. I know how it looks. I prided myself on not being a taker, a user and during my storm this prideful thinking got in my way of allowing others to help me. I am a therapist by professional so I have spent the last 17 years helping others. The shoes were now on my feet and I hated it. I did not want to appear soft, weak etc. To a certain degree I blocked God out.

As I reflect I realize I need others, people need people. I knew God’s people were praying for me and for that I will be eternally grateful. They prayed for me when I could not pray for myself. I now share tears with those I have chosen to be safe with and it feels good to release it. I can talk it out instead of shutting down and eating everything in sight. I ballooned up to 244 lbs living a life of rejecting help. I am now practicing accepting the help of others, and I see it as a victory to God. During the storm I learned so much, and God is revealing Himself to me daily. I came through the storm in one piece to discover that I am living in my purpose. What God put me through was to make me who I am today. A woman who knows her worthy, her beauty and a great love for others. My daily prayer is that I make God proud and do not turn from His works in me and allow pride to get in the way and to be humble.

I do feel honored that I know the True and Living God and that He lives in me. I strive to live a life of worship, getting up everyday that I am blessed with giving God the glory. As I write this I think of my mother Olivia who was this type of person, she dedicated her life to Christ and made it real clear that she loved the Lord. I see myself in her in so many ways; I use to strive to look like her because she was so beautiful to me. Now I strive to have a heart like hers that strived to love the Lord and allow others to know Christ.

Sitting Still

Sitting Still

Lord You are so special to me. You give me peace when I normally would be in my self destructive mode. You let me know that I am worthy, so worthy. Worthy of being loved, worthy of Your love. Lord help me and give me the words I need to express myself that are nurturing, and filled with LOVE. I trust and believe that this can happen. I am praying this, my church family, family and friends.

Sunday Worship service was powerful. Pastor spoke the word of God and was able to deliver it in a manner that was very encouraging. I am excited about Friday evening prayer vigil. My friend Eva has been invited I am praying that she is led to come and is blessed.

This weekend was a restful one, I did not run around, I was able to sit still and do some things around the house. Sometimes I find myself running not to think about things that trouble me. It felt good to spend Saturday with Jayden and enjoy him. On Sunday we prepared to put the Christmas Tree out on the curb. So the living room can go back to everyday living. Even on Sunday I cancelled my dinner plans came home and enjoyed being home and enjoy sitting still and being in God’s company.

This past Friday evening I ordered my treadmill, lifetime warranty on frame and motor and delivery was only $1. I prayed and waited for God to direct me on this big ticket item. I love to walk using the treadmill and walking outside is so therapeutic to me. I get to spend quiet time with the Lord either with him in conversation or listening to worship music. I am looking forward to my delivery date of February 2nd. Yes, it is such a nice treadmill, it has a fan and plug for MP3. My other treadmill did not have all the bells and whistles but it got the job done. I am praising God that I had the funds to take advantage of the sale.

I will be at True Image 2x this week. Yes Lord ! Sitting Still

Lord You are so special to me. You give me peace when I normally would be in my self destructive mode. You let me know that I am worthy, so worthy. Worthy of being loved, worthy of Your love. Lord help me and give me the words I need to express myself that are nurturing, and filled with LOVE. I trust and believe that this can happen. I am praying this, my church family, family and friends.

This past Friday evening I ordered my treadmill, lifetime warranty on frame and motor and delivery was only $1. I prayed and waited for God to direct me on this big ticket item. I love to walk using the treadmill and walking outside is so therapeutic to me. I get to spend quiet time with the Lord either with him in conversation or listening to worship music. I am looking forward to my delivery date of February 2nd. Yes, it is such a nice treadmill, it has a fan and plug for MP3. My other treadmill did not have all the bells and whistles but it got the job done. I am praising God that I had the funds to take advantage of the sale.

OH Yes ! I have my FA (Food Addict Anonymous) meeting tonight. "Hi, My name is Vanessa and I am a food addict." I have not been in a few weeks it is time I show my face in the place. I need the support. My evenings have become so busy I need to make my monday night committed meeting a priorty.

Beauty: It would be a blog of mine if I didn't mention something about fashion or makeup. Well I got a sample of Lancome foundation and wore it a couple days. It gives good coverage and adds warmth to my face. My Mac and Makeup Forever foundations have a red undertone. I am liking the Lancome alot. I also picked up a Mac shadow saddle which I use as a transition shadow to blend. Excellient pigementation. Today I used my Mac carbon shadow as eyeliner instead of my gel liner. I think next time I will use gel then put the Mac carbon on top.

While I was sitting still over the weekend I soaked and cleaned my makeup brushes.

Rave: I continue to love my Clarisonic I have not had a breakout since I begun to use it. I also use Retin A (sp) nightly. It exfoliates, it is "The Business". I am in the market for a really good undereye night cream.

Rant: I have at least 50 lip colors or more and I only use Oh Baby by Mac. Why, Why, Why do I have all these colors and afraid to use them. I like a nude look but color is cute. In the back of my mind red/burgangy lip colors look dated and make can make you look older. I feel comfortable in nude. Just my rant at spending cash on things I am not using.

Thank You Lord ! I am forever grateful ! You have shown Yourself to be powerful in my life. You are allowing me to live in my purpose. It feels so good to live a life of worship. Giving You the glory always.

This week has been eventful ! I have been in prayer regarding family issues. God continues to bless us. I have not blogged in a few days because of not having the motivation nor time. This week God has used me to bless others and I have been blessed by others. I participate in 2 Life Groups and they both are totally awesome. Both groups allow me to go as deep as I feel I need. I feel safe in my groups, safe to share my stuff . One group I am the assistant and I am praying that God uses me as His vessel through their journey. My Life Groups have been my highlights of the week. Getting into the Word is amazing. God revealing Himself through to me through the word is growth for me.

I am still listening for God to guide me toward the purchase of the treadmill. I have not rushed to purchase it as it is a big ticket item. I feel I need it, but I am watching my checking account. If I purchase it today, they have a backup on delivery and would take them two weeks to deliver. I would need to be patient. I would like to have treadmill to help me maintain and lose a few more much needed pounds.

I am looking forward to a wonderful weekend; Seed Team and Sunday Worship. Praise God Thank You Lord ! I am forever grateful ! You have shown Yourself to be powerful in my life. You are allowing me to live in my purpose. It feels so good to live a life of worship. Giving You the glory always. I can't say it enough.

Feeling Good on this snowy day !

Lord I thank You for blessing me with life. A life of abundance. You have given to me what I could not do for myself. Continue to bless my family and friends. I am grateful, so very grateful !

Last evening our Life Group was awesome. The ice breakers were fun and full of energy and excitement. The ladies are in need of a blessing. The workout portion was challenging but we got through it with prayer. The ladies wrote their goal statements and we will challenge them and ourselves to reach our goals. I feel good working in my gifting, I am truly blessed.

Prior to group I worked out with the ladies of True Image. Excellent workout. I am feeling stronger, I need to work on endurance. I also want to take more time making sure I am doing the moves correction for scrulpting. I like a toned well defined body. A healthy look is a good look to have. Feeling healthy emotional, is a real blessing.

I feel good today, full of energy and expecting a wonderful weekend. I will be stopping at the grocery stores on the way home to stack up on food items, we are expecting more snow and I want to be home cooking and cleaning. I want my domestic side to shine this weekend LOL

U turn - 1-12-12

Excited but a bit Nervous (making a u turn ) 1-12-12

Lord I thank You for the excitement that is generating in my life. I am praying that I am led by You in everything I do. I want to be your vessel. Thank You for using me to Kingdom Build.
Yesterday was good, it was exciting and brought new hope. I am praying God’s will in my life. I am thinking that soon I will be faced with a decision, a life turning event. I am waiting quietly and listening for God’s voice. Watching very carefully so that I do not misinterpret or totally ignore what God has for me. What keeps me interested is that is if it is of God it will be awesome. I love to see God work His hand so for this I am totally excited. Thanks for allowing me to make the U turn Lord. I do not place anything or anyone above You, You are my everything.

Last night I prepared Jayden for bedtime and he settles down much better. He seems to understand what bedtime is all about now. He knows that everybody goes to sleep and then we get up. Simple for us grown ups, but he really struggled at bedtime, being hyperactive. He now seems to want to lay down and rest his self. We said our prayers and he went to sleep. Amen. He is growing up really fast. We had a short conversation the other day, I asked him where he had been all day and he told me. Again, simple but yet so precious to me.

Today I have Life Group (Fit for the King) we have planned a year of interesting and interactive classes for the ladies. Tonight we go into our next session, we have prayed for the group and the ladies and for the ladies to be blessed and encouraged and to reach their success.

Today I have had two really nourishing meals. I am working real hard to put only foods in my body that are good for me. I do have caffeine every morning. Body body craves it or either it is all in my mind.

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Weekend – Saturday a.m.; True Image then church; evangelism midday; resale store (sale $10 two piece suits and $10 dresses) and you can use $5 off coupon on $25 order. Evening Potluck: lots of fun.
Sunday – NCBF – distribute fliers

True Image Fitness

True Image Fitness


Thank You Lord for the strength that You have poured into me. I feel strong in my body and feel at peace. Only You can provide like this. Lord I am ready !

Last night True Image’s workout was on fire. The room was full of energy and excitement. We had 3 instructors in the class, and they used their presence to push and encourage us. I did things that I thought I could no longer do. My body was strong, there is much much room for improvement, but I feel good about where God has brought me.

Today I spent most of the day listening to Spotify and doing my work. Totally attempting to zone out at atmosphere. It feels good to be productive and keep things moving.

True Image is taking their program to the next level. I plan to go Thursday evening and work it out again. Tonight I am going to prayer service and Life Group.

1-10-12 It's a New Day, New Mercies !

Lord I magnify Your Holy name. You are my everything. To You I am so grateful. You have given me life so abundant and a life of peace. Thank You! Bless my family and friends, bless leadership everywhere.

Today has been a productive day. I have accomplished plenty. I am feeling at peace with things for today. I have faced some things that were upsetting but I took some deep breaths, kept my mind focused on God and kept my life moving in a positive direction.

Tonight I have True Image, I am in need of a good workout, and I need to jump, move, flex and stretch. Yes my body is craving it. I did The Firm video and it was very good, it left me knowing I had worked out, I will continue to firm at home. But I need the company of the people of True Image. The support and bond is magnificent.

Tonight The Game premiere the new season. I am excited, yes I enjoy some TV, I have my favorites that I tune into J I have a productive week planned and my weekend is looking promising; potluck with friends and NCBF worship service. Praise God for fellowship. God designed humans to need one another. God is awesome. I am praying on some special things. God’s will be done.

Ok OK fashion, I have to throw in some things. I continue to go and check out my two favorite thrift stores. This past Saturday, I got a designer label new dress for $5.00, yes $5.00. Now it is a bit big on me. But I can afford to have it tailored to my size. I will wait until summer to have it done, as it is a summer dress; perfect for dinner or a special event. I also picked up a couple $8.00 blazers and a suit for $12.00. I have fallen in love with jeans, so comfortable and I can mix and match tops and blazers to give a polished, well put together look.

Bargain find: I found my makeup remover at Big Lot for $3.50 per bottle. Yes Yes Yes, I could not find it in any drug store. What I am thinking is it is a discontinued item and Big Lot brought them all. In the drug store it cost about $6.00 and on Amazon they are $9 per bottle. So I picked up two I will stop back in after work and stock up. What I love about it is that it is cleans well along with my Clarisonic and the foam is very moisturizing. It leaves my skin fresh, then I finish it off with the cleanser the dermatologist recommended. Retin A is awesome. I can’t say enough about it, at first I was scared, I was peeling a lot, then it taper off and now no peeling. It’s like a new layer of skin.

OK good bye, chat later !

1-9-12 Chose to Live

Dear Lord thank You for carrying me over into 2012 without any hurt, harm or danger. Thank you for allowing me to reach out and help others, to be used as your vessel. I want to thank you for guiding me toward honoring my vessel that You gave to me. This is a special gift from You. Lord You knew I had given up, but You were not finished with me. You had not called me home. You still have kingdom work for me. I choose to live, depending on You for everything, big and small. Lord I love you. Thank You for allowing me to work in my gifting. Lord you designed me and know me. Build me up, give me what I need to help others. Give me the wisdom and the words to reach others who are in need.

Ok OK OK, I’m back, I realized this past Friday I had not blogged in awhile. I got caught up over the holidays and when I returned to my routine, I was missing something. It was blogging J This is where I come to express myself to myself LOL Hopefully others are reading and following my journal.

New Years Resolutions – Similar to last year’s to be true to myself and follow Jesus. Last year I took the time to think about things before accepting things other’s may request of me. It seemed to worked, I wanted peace, I wanted to be able to move out of my passiveness and walk in more of God’s boldness. This year I want to be able to speak only good words on others, I do not want my tongue to carry nonsense and harmful things that could hurt others. God is blessing me and I want to honor Him totally. I want to continue to listen for God’s voice in my life, this past year I was able to slow down a lot and get in touch with God and in getting in touch with HIM I found me. No self help book, the Lord got me through last year. I am forever grateful.

Holidays were wonderful, spent them with family and friends. Awesome time off work. I am grateful for my work J But I do enjoy off time. There was a time on Christmas when I wanted to go completely off, but something inside gave me peace and allowed me to choose my words carefully. Lord I know that was You working in me. I want my life to bring others closer to Christ not push them into another direction.

Lord bless my family and we hold on to one another in love. I love my family and they love me. Bless my grandson as he is growing strong and help him be the lil man of God you would have him be. Put positive men in his life to help mold him. Lord I am thanking you in advance.