Day 95 -Bad News - Sad (:

There is Good News and There is Bad News !!

Over the past month I have been ignoring some very bad news. Thinking if I ignored it the problem would go away. Well it has gone away. This problem I will definitely be taking to God. God will give me the answers I need. God has always helped me and he won't now.

Well here it is ! Ariel and Jayden are moving to the ATL July 3rd 2010. Lord Oh Lord. I understand and I don't. I pray this is God's will for her life and I pray for their safety. It's not like I will just miss Jayden she is my daughter. I pray she finds and surrounds herself with an awesome support team. I pray she and Jayden are blessed.

I love them !

Today was a day I spent doing some cleaning and organizing. This was a good thing ! I am getting ready for some upcoming 4C Events.

Day 89 - God and Mom

God is directing my steps. I continue to be QUIET and listen to God's voice. I am working to block out distractions, haters, etc which allows God to pour into me. I am seeing the benefits of what God is doing. My work life has improved and I am also caring for my mother with more patience. She and I are sharing how we feel about each other. When I walked in her presence she said why do you always smile when you come home. I told her because I think and pray for you all day and I can't wait to see you. This evening she told me she was hanging in for me, because "SHE LOVED ME" ! I was touched, I sometimes wonder what she is thinking as she lays there. She has not changed, she is still my loving mother. It is so like her to sacrifice her life for me. To be in pain and push on so that she can spend time with me. I know God is in total control and she does to, we realize God will call her home when he is ready. One day she told me "Don't let them doctors kill me, I don't mind going when the Good Lord is ready for me, but don't let them kill me".

I had an eventful day at work, I completed some work and handled some other tasks because a coworker is out ill. It was a really good day. One of my coworker's announced she was accepting another position. We all were excited for her as she so deserves it. It was her time. We will miss her so much, she is a very kind, and knowledgable person.

Jayden had a doctor's appt today he gained two more lbs. He is really growing super fast. I talked to him on Ariel's speaker phone and she said he was smiling and looking around. He is so sweet. I pray for him daily.

Good Evening ! Thank You Lord for today !! Thank You for allowing me to experience love !

Day 88 -Come On and Dance

Hello Followers !

I have been busy working and taking care of my family. Really busy. I have blogging/journaling daily. I am excited about what God is doing in my life. He is growing me up. Since my mom has been ill I have had to step up to the plate and be the woman she was. Which means I am carrying a lot of added responsiblity. One day I was sitting and thinking and realized I had grown up. As long as my mom was up and about I relied on her for alot. I have had to make decisions relying on the Lord. With my mother in her present con-dition it has forced me to count on God. Wow !

I find myself saying things my mom would say like, and quoting scriptures. I have found a new love for old school gospel. Songs mama use to love and sing. They have so much meaning for me, because I know now my mom was where I am now. Totally depending on God for her help !

Ok, alright ! Something a little lighter :) I am excited about 4C Event Planners. We are planning a Dance Extravaganza. It will be held September 17th from about 7 til 12:00 or 1:00. We are still working out all the details. Please stay tuned in to our webpage and Fan page on facebook. We are as mother would say "putting the big pot in the little one". lol This means we are planning something really big and nice the community and our friends. I love planning and all the behind the scene things that go on to put an event together. Check out the photo of the party center. We plan to fill this dance floor, with excitement and dance. We love an exciting party.

Day 81 - 4C Planning

Lord I continue to Bless Your Holy Name !!! You are so worthy Lord ! I trust and believe You Lord ! Thank You for being everything to me ! Lord help my mom ! Help our situation ! I want to continue caring for her. I need your help and direction.

Today was good for me. Work was work, I continue to stay focused on my daily tasks and I am being productive in what I do. Everything seems to be going smoothly. We have not been that busy this week. This is the quiet before the storm. Our work comes in waves and we know what is coming.

Today I realized more than ever that I love event planning. This is my second career. Today I student ask me to give her a couple of pointer on event planning. She is writing a "how to" paper about "party planning" and it needed to be at least 800 words. Well don't you know my few pointers turned into me doing the entire assignment. I wrote this paper in about 30 minutes. Of course it ended up being over 1,200 words. Writing the paper came so easy, it is clearly my passion. The person I wrote it for was excited and very impressed. We went over the assignment and she also has a passion for planning. It is an english assignment but it also taught her some key points about professional event planning. She learned some things that she said she would use in her future planning.

My love for event planning pushes me to want clients on our 4C calendar. Not so much for the $ but to have the opportunity to plan and serve. The bonus for me is the $. Getting paid for something I enjoy is such a blessing. Especially when the client feels blessed by the event.

Our event planning business has grown. We are right where God wants us to be. He wants us to be fair and honest with our clients. We want a strong reputation. Because in business your reputation will make or break you. We have learned from one another and we are learning from our business mistakes and successes. We want to do more of what works for our clients. We have the confidence that we can plan and execute any event. God has given us this gift and he wants us to use it to His glory. I want God to work in our business and we do as He would have us to do.

Go Team 4C +1.

James 1 and 2 - Put it in your heart !

Wow, Wow, Wow !!!

Because of God, I had a Peaceful day ! The enemy threw something at me, and God gave me the strength to ignore and not over react. I would like to think that nothing worse can happen in my life. That's would be to easy. The storms I have been through better prepare me to handle what else comes up against me. I have to stay encouraged and keep my head up. God has not worked in my life for me to sit back be angry and shut down. No, he wants me to be fruitful, to grow and to bring others to Christ through my testimony.

I have to stay obedient and be lead by God and do His will. Even when it is not comfortable, even when I feel like I can handle it. I can't :) I have to give it to God. I have made up my mind to live by this, to live in purpose doing God's will. The enemy wants me to prevent me from kingdom building. God has been too good to me to turn my back in disbelief. I have a sense of loyalty and I want to serve GOD until I die.

The Book of James ministers to me.

Trials and Temptations

²Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, ³because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. ⁴Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. ⁵If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. ⁶But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. ⁷That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; ⁸he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.

⁹The brother in humble circumstances ought to take pride in his high position. ¹⁰But the one who is rich should take pride in his low position, because he will pass away like a wild flower. ¹¹For the sun rises with scorching heat and withers the plant; its blossom falls and its beauty is destroyed. In the same way, the rich man will fade away even while he goes about his business.

¹²Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.

----------- God's word is true ! I have to hold on to the word of God, and trust that God will fulfill His promise. Consider it Joy, yes Lord, Lord you are growing me, teaching me and pouring into me. I want to praise you in advance for what You are doing in my life. Today you revealed something to me and I now more clearly understand what You need me to do. I release it.

Thank You Lord !!!

This is the Day ! Got Fruits !

Praise God ! I thank you for all Your many blessings !! I am grateful to You for providing for me my family and friends.

I woke up this morning with my mind on Jesus and determined to make it to service. I had much to do before 11:00 service. But I was determined not to let anything come between me and God. I was faced with a phone call from a girlfriend, who I had not talked to in a few days. Our phone conversations and go on and on. I talked for about 30 minutes then I told her I had to get ready for church service. Boy was the conversation good, she was talking about her relationship. Tempting, but I let it go. Second distraction, Jayden spent the night and his mom was at home sleep. I called her and told her I would be at her home in 10 minutes with Jayden. Boy, he was so cute but I could not let nothing come between me and God. Then last but not least I had to bathe, feed, change dressings and feed my mom. That is such a big job for me every morning. It takes a total of about an hour or more, depending on if she is sick or just being stubborn :) After caring for everybody else, I took a long soaking bath with my new Lush products. Nice treat and I recommend their products to start or end the day. I say all this to say that I was determined to make it to service, I wanted to make God my priority and I am so glad I did. I needed to hear the sermon. God Fruits !

After service I stopped home to check in on my mom. The fam had taken care of her and I cleaned her up and got her ready for her meal. I then went to Brianna's 21st Birthday Party Celebration. We had good fellowship. I had never been there, the food was good. Brianna is growing into such a dyanamic Little Woman of God. She is now home for the summer. Her spirit is so sweet !! Sis Steph rode home with me, I love her, another dynamic Woman of God.

When I got home I tended to my mom and we talked. She has such a good sense of humor, I look forward to talking to her to see what she will say next. I praise God for each and every day we have together. I thank God for another day of Peace. I want to be still, listen to God and see what he has planned for me. I know He loves me so much, I want to see what fruit I will bear.

"I Woke Up This Morning with my Mind Laid on Jesus"

This morning I woke up with a grateful heart ! I am so thankful to God for the things He has done for me and plans to do. He is planning to do great things, I can feel it. I am so excited about You.

This morning was a perfect Saturday morning ! Rested in with my mom. She was discharged late last night from the Cleveland Clinic. There was nothing major going on, her blood count was low. This morning she and I had breakfast together. This morning when she woke up she looked at me and said "I love you Van". We had scrambled eggs and orange juice and she had a protein drink. She is eating so much better.

After spending some quality time with mama, I went to lunch with Lori and Cheryl. We caught up on each other's lives and had good fun. Lori and I had desert then our entree, really good decision.. After we ate we took a stroll through the mall and ended up in Lush. I am a Fan of Lush. I got a couple of bath items to help me relax and to pamper myself. Really good natural products. Well worth the investment.

Now, moving on I got to spend some time with Jayden, well I watched him sleep :) He is a sweety. Dominique took him to a birthday party. She said he played, took a bottle and then went to sleep. When he got to my house he was already sleep and did not wait up even when we took his coat off. I guess he needed the rest.

So my day was quite nice. I am looking forward to more days like these. I am praising God in advance. Thanks Lord !

Oh, yeah ! I am going to catch up on my reading. Eclipse, yes, Eclipse. Today I purchased tickets for Eclipse. I am so excited. If you are a Fan of Eclipse, are you Team Edward or Team Jacob.