Welcome to Olivia's Daughter....a blog that I created in March 2010 to document my blessed journey of healing. Since I began this blog, my mother has gone home to be with the Lord along with my son, Chris Reshaud Jordan, who was murdered in October 2009. After these two devastating events, I felt forsaken by God. I cried out to the Lord seeking my purpose in life. Throughout this experience, I had to make the choice to surrender to a life of worthlessness or to live my life to the fullest, a life filled with abundance and love.


God has strengthened me. I am seeking Him daily and and working to live in His will which is leading me to my purpose and passion. I think of Chris and Olivia constantly, but I have turned this over to God. I want God to use me as his vessel giving Him the glory.

Monday, January 23, 2012

Sitting Still




Sitting Still

Lord You are so special to me. You give me peace when I normally would be in my self destructive mode. You let me know that I am worthy, so worthy. Worthy of being loved, worthy of Your love. Lord help me and give me the words I need to express myself that are nurturing, and filled with LOVE. I trust and believe that this can happen. I am praying this, my church family, family and friends.

Sunday Worship service was powerful. Pastor spoke the word of God and was able to deliver it in a manner that was very encouraging. I am excited about Friday evening prayer vigil. My friend Eva has been invited I am praying that she is led to come and is blessed.

This weekend was a restful one, I did not run around, I was able to sit still and do some things around the house. Sometimes I find myself running not to think about things that trouble me. It felt good to spend Saturday with Jayden and enjoy him. On Sunday we prepared to put the Christmas Tree out on the curb. So the living room can go back to everyday living. Even on Sunday I cancelled my dinner plans came home and enjoyed being home and enjoy sitting still and being in God’s company.

This past Friday evening I ordered my treadmill, lifetime warranty on frame and motor and delivery was only $1. I prayed and waited for God to direct me on this big ticket item. I love to walk using the treadmill and walking outside is so therapeutic to me. I get to spend quiet time with the Lord either with him in conversation or listening to worship music. I am looking forward to my delivery date of February 2nd. Yes, it is such a nice treadmill, it has a fan and plug for MP3. My other treadmill did not have all the bells and whistles but it got the job done. I am praising God that I had the funds to take advantage of the sale.

I will be at True Image 2x this week. Yes Lord ! Sitting Still

Lord You are so special to me. You give me peace when I normally would be in my self destructive mode. You let me know that I am worthy, so worthy. Worthy of being loved, worthy of Your love. Lord help me and give me the words I need to express myself that are nurturing, and filled with LOVE. I trust and believe that this can happen. I am praying this, my church family, family and friends.

This past Friday evening I ordered my treadmill, lifetime warranty on frame and motor and delivery was only $1. I prayed and waited for God to direct me on this big ticket item. I love to walk using the treadmill and walking outside is so therapeutic to me. I get to spend quiet time with the Lord either with him in conversation or listening to worship music. I am looking forward to my delivery date of February 2nd. Yes, it is such a nice treadmill, it has a fan and plug for MP3. My other treadmill did not have all the bells and whistles but it got the job done. I am praising God that I had the funds to take advantage of the sale.


OH Yes ! I have my FA (Food Addict Anonymous) meeting tonight. "Hi, My name is Vanessa and I am a food addict." I have not been in a few weeks it is time I show my face in the place. I need the support. My evenings have become so busy I need to make my monday night committed meeting a priorty.


Beauty: It would be a blog of mine if I didn't mention something about fashion or makeup. Well I got a sample of Lancome foundation and wore it a couple days. It gives good coverage and adds warmth to my face. My Mac and Makeup Forever foundations have a red undertone. I am liking the Lancome alot. I also picked up a Mac shadow saddle which I use as a transition shadow to blend. Excellient pigementation. Today I used my Mac carbon shadow as eyeliner instead of my gel liner. I think next time I will use gel then put the Mac carbon on top.


While I was sitting still over the weekend I soaked and cleaned my makeup brushes.


Rave: I continue to love my Clarisonic I have not had a breakout since I begun to use it. I also use Retin A (sp) nightly. It exfoliates, it is "The Business". I am in the market for a really good undereye night cream.


Rant: I have at least 50 lip colors or more and I only use Oh Baby by Mac. Why, Why, Why do I have all these colors and afraid to use them. I like a nude look but color is cute. In the back of my mind red/burgangy lip colors look dated and make can make you look older. I feel comfortable in nude. Just my rant at spending cash on things I am not using.

1 comment:

  1. Wow Vanessa. I really love how you are so inclined to speak to the Lord about everything, including things that may not seem important to Him. He loves you so all that is on your mind is important to Him too! Thanks for sharing your inner most self with me. I am learning alot because of your willingness to be transparent. Let's committ to pray for each other as we both are putting ourselves out there for others to see. It's risky business, but I am so compelled to share so that folks can see that it is ok to be open, and vulnerable even in this tricky, mean old world! Love you girl and let me add, wear another color lipstick and see what happens?!?!

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