Lord is it me or is it me !

Lord I am struggling in the area of relationships. I am not in fellowship with certain individuals; to be exact 3 and possible 1 more. I am in need of You to examine my heart and show me any wrongs things I may have said or done. Or is it that I am being separated from these individuals for a reason. It does not feel God like as we do not communicate anymore. I do know at times I do not want to tolerate people if they piss me off, I shut them off and keep it movin. I am not feeling good in this place, I do not have to have these individual in my closest circle but I do want to be able to be cordial. Move my pride out of the way and let me acknowledge my wrong, give me the words needed to make amends. Two of the relationships are kinda like I always feel used and disrespected so I see myself choosing to keep the door closed. The other was disrespect and I reacted too quickly, I had let a lot build up in me and I passively aggressively let the person have it. I was THREW. I want to practice giving love and if people need to step out of my life for a season I want them to have kind thoughts of me. Lately I find myself at peace and if others are disrupting my peace I push them out. I need to know is this cool, is it ok, or is it me.