Lord God I serve You with a heart of thanksgiving. Appreciating all that You are. You are magnificent in everything. You are teaching me patience and trust. For this I am grateful. You guide me and led me. Lord bless my family, keep them safe and out
of harms way. Give them the heart to
serve You on a daily and help them to realize You are the way. Allow my life to be an example. Lord give me strength as I go out to do Your
bidding. Strength Lord. When I am in doubt remove my doubts and
fears. Give me a mind focused on
You. I want to trust You in EVERYTHING !
My weight loss
journey has not been easy. I am an
emotional eater, I eat to eat. For me being an emotional eater I eat when I am
happy, sad it doesn’t matter. I am not
the type that feels down and turns from food, I run toward food. The fattier, the sweeter, the breader I like
it. While I am eating it I stuff, stuff,
stuff. When I am finished there is guilt
and shame tied up in my food. These
feelings turn inward and I begin to not like who I am, the woman God has
uniquely formed. I struggle with my
foods and food choices. This morning I stopped again for breakfast. I have not been in the mood to cook breakfast
because I ran out of a couple of needed items.
Go figure, I time I spend picking up breakfast I could be picking up a
carton of eggs and oatmeal. Which I did
pick up this morning J Long story
short, I stood there in line and debated, breakfast sandwich vs. steel cut
oatmeal with fresh fruit. I did make the
healthier choice, but I really struggled with it. When I follow my no sugar no flour plan as
laid out, I have such peace with my food.
I need to get back to this place.
Today I planned a lunch according to the no sugar no flour plan. Each meal I will approach in this manner
until it is out of my system. Lord I
need Your help.
Yesterday was a good day.
No major drama. I had two things
that stressed me, with God’s help I am getting through it and over it. I have learned to sit back and see the bigger
picture before I react. I want to be
careful not to harm others, but I still need to do what I need to do, without
feeling like others’ are walking over me not caring about my situation. Yesterday’s blog I mentioned a situation
regarding a relationship in which I needed to handle something in a way in
which God would be pleased and not hurt their feeling. Today I am still festering in it, I hate when
things fester in me. I have spoken to the
individual already today and the topic was not mentioned. Avoidance that is me, big time. I avoid to the point where I become passive
aggressive. I might not say anything to you directly but it is there. You will rarely ever see me angry, it’s
something I don’t do outwardly, I suppress and then I overeat or go into other
addictive behaviors. I am working really
hard to go to Jesus and give it to Him.
I know He will work it out, but my flesh so badly wants to let this
person know who they are messing with J But that’s not a relationship building
mindset. My choice in this matter will
put a rip in our really good relationship.
So I have to really analysis how important is this relationship to me,
how important is it to God that our paths continue. Seeing it through God’s purpose keeps softens
my heart. Because our paths were brought
together to do good for the Kingdom, no real other purpose. Keep this in prayer with me. It is important that I make the Godly
choice. What’s crazy is if you knew what
all this was about, you would be like " girl you crazy it’s not that deep" J It really helps putting it out there and
sorting it out. In the past this would
have been a no brainer for me. My
response would have been so not nice.
I do know that I have an addictive personality. I am a food addict, spending addict and most
recently have become a Pinterest addict.
Yes it is so interesting to me. It is like an adult game in which I get
to name and categorize things that I have interest. When I see myself going in this direction I
have focus on how is God receiving glory in my new found interest. Right now I can’t think of any, if you think
of any let me know. It is good clean,
enjoyable fun. If you are already into Pinterest
stop by and check out my various boards.
Go ahead and repin a few I don’t mind J
Beauty & Fashion:
Today is a beautiful day, I wore some fuchsia with black. I wanted a pop of color. I see Ms. Juanita(hair stylist) this afternoon and I am so looking forward to
it. On Saturday I stopped in the CCO
which sell discounted high end cosmetics and skin care. Well I purchased a Mac lip stain and the
thing is dried up already. Lesson
learned. I have purchased lipsticks and
foundations in the past from other CCO, but I will never get a stain. You never know how long they have had
merchandise.
My boot will be coming off in two week. I will at that time get myself a manicure and
pedicure. A nice treat.
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